Thursday, April 14, 2011

Freddie

Fred Joseph Wald VI was born 17 weeks early on April 5th.
He was on a special mission from heaven and needed only to receive his mortal body. While in our arms on April 12th, he returned home to his Heavenly Father. He is one of God's most precious angels and we are so lucky he chose us as his Earthly parents.
We know he is with us and that we will see him again.

This is by far the hardest thing we have ever gone through. One of my nurses told me that it was therapeutic to tell the story and that the more I talked about little Freddie and our brief time together on Earth - the more I would heal. I've decided to document Freddie's journey in hopes that it will  not only help me heal in a small way but give us a place to remember our incredible experiences, heartaches, and tender mercies from the Lord.

17 comments:

Rachel said...

I can't imagine what you are going through but I hope that you can feel peace in this time of trial. I am thinking of you.

communikate. said...

Oh Chana.
My heart is going to out you. I'm sending my love and prayers to you.

xoxo

Kate

Caro said...

Chana, my heart is hurting for you guys. I am sending to you all the positive energy that I can. Try not to lose yourself, honor his life with yours.

Amanda said...

I can't say anything that you haven't heard already. I have been thinking about you non stop. I can't imagine what you are going through. I am impressed with your strength. I can tell by how he is holding your finger how much he loves you and needs you as his mom. I love you girlie.

Jarrett and Sydni said...

I can't look at his sweet picture without tears forming in my eyes, what a special little baby and how lucky you at least got to meet him and say goodbye to him. I can't express how sorry I am for you and Fred and all of your family. Telling his story will help you through this difficult time and will also preserve the memory of him. I'm sending all of my love and if you ever need a shoulder to cry on (most likely over the phone) I am there for you. I don't know what you are going through but I've felt the pain of death from a loved one.
Lots of loves,
Sydni

farmgirl said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Fred.
~Mary Ann

erica said...

Oh my gosh Chana. I was in shock reading this, I had to double check that it was really your blog. I can't even imagine what you are going through, and like everyone else I don't have anything to say that seems worthy enough. But I appreciate your honesty and williness to share this experience and to read that your faith is still so strong, I'm not sure I could be as strong! Your guys are in our prayers!

The Duncan Family said...

Chana I am so sorry for your loss. You are in our prayers.

Brandon, Rachelle and Samantha said...

Chana,

Brandon and I feel so sorry that you and your husband are going through this. Your faith really is inspiring. I'm sure Freddie is a very special little angel. I hope you feel Heavenly Father's love so much during this difficult time and always.

love,
Rachelle

Kelly and Tadd said...

Fred and Chana,

We are so sad for you and have you in our prayers. We think about you guys often and how we wish we could be in Arizona to help in any way. If there is ANYTHING that we can do, do not hesitate. We love you guys and know that Heavenly Father is watching over you and is mindful of your needs.

Love,

Kelly and Tadd

Christy said...

Chana, I'm so proud of you for blogging after everything that's happened. (I believe blogging is some of the best therapy in the world.) I wish there was more I could do... I wish I could help shoulder the burden of your sorrow and grief. Thank heavens for the Plan of Salvation and the Atonement... without those things, life would seem so pointless and hopeless. I have already been amazed at your strength and your faith. You are AMAZING!

Jared and Davian said...

Chana,
I love this sweet picture of baby Freddie's tiny precious hand around your finger! I look forward to reading more about Freddie's story. How sweet of you to share with others your incredible experiences, heartaches and tender mercies from the Lord. I am sure it will have an impact on others far beyond what you may never know. I already have been so touched by your faith and courage through the most difficult time in your life. I continue to pray for you daily.
Much love,
Davian

Karamie said...

Fred and Chana, We are so sorry and shocked to read this....wow, how hard this must be...thank you for sharing this and in such an amazing faithful way...we are thinking of you and praying for you! -Neal and Karamie Maynes

Kristina Curtis said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I can't stop crying. I look at his sweetness and start to bawl. My heart goes out to you. What a lucky boy to have such strong and wonderful parents.

Chelsie and Trace said...

Oh Chana I am so sorry for your loss. I cried when I saw this. I can't imagine what you are going through. You are such a strong person and I know that you will have the strenghth to get through this.

ALi said...

So sorry to hear this. I have definitely been thinking about you.

Shanna said...

Your sweet blog has brought so much peace to me, as my husband and I are going through this same trial. Our little "Boston" was stillborn on July 9th. We would be lost without the gospel, we are so grateful to know we will see him again. Thank you for your posts that have helped me so much. You are in my thoughts and prayers. -Shanna